LeeAnne, my mom is like Karen in that she also believes in fate and so I will pass on the same advice that she would give to you and that is "It wasn't meant to be". I was in a situation once where I was the second choice and the first choice accepted the job and then was offered her first choice with another company - and accepted it. So, that happens too. You're a very funny person and I would guess your boss is kind of stuffy. Am I right? Something will open up for you when the time is right and in the meantime tell your husband and kids that you need some extra hugs!