Trish,
I add my condolences also. You may remember my post a few months ago that we had cancelled our Singapore-Sydney Mariner cruise because my husband had cancer. He did pass away in September, three months after he was diagnosed. Although I was expecting it, it is still a shock. I do better each day and know that time will help. Holiday times are always tough. So, as I said at the time, travel when you can, time can be unexpectedly short!
Maggie