Sorry to hear this, Sue. Having given 21 years to a company and then find yourself falling victim to a very faltering economy and through no fault of your own, is something difficult to digest.
Having walked a mile in your shoes, I can honestly say that there is something great and far better on the horizon for you. Your extensive experience and superior skills and talents will become a great asset to someone in the very near future. For everything, there is a reason and purpose. The reason may not be clear now, but will eventually show itself...and, it will all be for the better.
In the interim, stay strong and positive and indulge yourself in whatever gives you joy.
A big hug is being sent your way! :hug: