Dear Claudia:
We don't know each other. I only know you from your posts and, of course, from your smiling picture.
Never lose that smile. I am sure that Al would never want you to.
Remember the good times with your best friend, your husband, your Al and count your blessings.... so many never get to have what you had... even for a short time. You two had something special. Treasure it.
My thoughts and prayers are with you....
Doug